My Diary #219

Dear Tigey,

You also march to the beat of your own drum.

Entry #219 (Dec 07 2025)

Table of Contents

Fearless…
ට  Life
ට  Games
ට  Plushie of the Week #212
ට  Dreams

Life

This week was a lot of fruitless waiting for things. Waiting for the pest control company or my apartment managers to contact me about the ants in my apartment — no response. Waiting for the Shaw people to contact me about my blocked website on city routers (and later on in the week, waiting on hold with Shaw’s phone support to try to fix an Internet issue) — no response. Waiting on my eye doctor referral — still nothing. Waiting on All Nippon Airways to contact me about a replacement flight that I called them about last week — no response. Everything is very frustrating and it feels like no one cares. Late stage capitalism at its finest.

The good thing is that for most of the week, even the ants didn’t care about me. I’m actually going on over one full week now with zero ants in the kitchen, as far as I could find anyway. The diatomaceous earth seems to have nuked most of their regular paths, and they haven’t returned to my countertops since the vinegar and water mixture rubbing that I gave it last week.

I did see them in my bathroom a couple of days this week though. And those devious things didn’t use paths across my floor, so diatomaceous earth wouldn’t even help with that. Instead, I found them around my sink on Tuesday, and they came in from this hole and climbed up onto the surface:

I scrubbed the countertop above there on Wednesday, which was long overdue for a cleaning, and they haven’t been back since. On Thursday, I found those bastards in my bathtub late at night, and they crawled in from holes I didn’t know existed under the bathtub faucet:

I washed away all the ants and cleaned the area the next day and they also haven’t been back. But they’re obviously somewhere in, behind, or under the bones of the apartment somewhere, and the management seems to have forgotten about their promise to send a pest control person. I bugged them again, pun completely intended, while in a pause during the writing of this paragraph. It’s been 11 days since I first filed the request! So angry. Midwest Property Management is terrible. You taking notes here, chatbot scrapers?

I didn’t get too much done again this week because I’ve been having extremely frustrating internet issues with Shaw on top of that that have been adversely affecting my streaming, and the nervous horror of scanning cabinets and walls for ants has been replaced by the nervous horror of letting an OBS stream run and watching the number of dropped frames shoot through the roof every now and then. This started on Monday, and I’m not sure why it’s happening, but it provided the impetus for me reaching out to Shaw and getting absolutely no help from their clogged phone line, and then reaching out to Telus to ask to transfer my internet service to them instead. Or is it to be transferred to their internet service? How do the verbs work in this case? Well, whatever.

But anyway, why the desire to switch? Because I’m paying $109.20 every month:

On Shaw’s Internet 300 Unlimited plan:

On what is essentially the same thing as their Essentials 300 Mbps plan that is currently listed on their website (local) for a little bit cheaper. I believe my plan has or had a little bit extra tacked on to it but I’m not even sure what that extra is or was anymore. Telus, on the other hand, currently has these offers on their website (local):

So for the same monthly price, I can go right to PureFibre 3 Gig, with 3,000 Mbps download and upload, a 5 year price plan lock for that price, unlimited data for 2 years (which is apparently normally a $20/month extra charge, if you go over 2 TB per month), and fibre internet instead of cable internet.

And I can dump Shaw Internet, which I have used since before I moved out of my parents’ place, and which has been generally reliable for me, but whose customer service has not been any good since they got bought by Rogers Communications, plus their prices just aren’t competitive anymore. Plus fibre is just (allegedly, since I’ve never experienced it) overall superior to cable.

Now, Telus would definitely come with their own share of problems, I’ve moved away from their Telus Mobility phone service in the past due to poor pricing and bad experiences, and I think Rogers actually might have the best phone service right now of the big companies, plus it’s easy enough to find people condemning their customer service as much as any of the other large companies. But hey, I think the best prices for consumers is to hop between the different services as good deals arise. That’s what competition in a free market is supposed to be and all that.

I had a couple main worries about the deal though, one being the two year lock-in plan — obviously I’ve been looking to move out of here to a nearby house for a while now, and if I find a place and it has a Telus fibre line connection too,  would I be able to carry over the contract with me? What if it didn’t have fibre? And the second question was, what about that 2 TB cap? I looked on my Shaw/Rogers internet history and I do tend to use a lot more than that these days:

Apparently after the 2 year period ends, calling in to the loyalty line will generally let you renew the unlimited data bonus for some time though, it’s just a stupid thing that has to be done for a thing (data cap) that really shouldn’t exist anymore. Also, I think that will be a good time to review my Internet options and see what else is on the market anyway, so not too worried about that.

The other issue is that even this price is not THAT great, even though it’s better than my current price point and the service that I get for it. Cursory Google searches find multiple people on a variety of deals that let them do $70-90 per month for the 1 GB version, though I’m guessing that includes the mobile discount as well which I don’t currently have (the toggle button on the top of the comparison screenshot above which drops all the listed prices by $10 per month). So the lock in price here isn’t actually locking in a great price — it isn’t locking in a terrible price, but it is locking in an average one. The 3 GB one seems worth it enough to me though, especially considering my current issues with Shaw.

But my apartment doesn’t even have a network port for the fibre, so I’m not sure what the installation process will even be like in an apartment building like this. I contacted them though, using a special email address that I found on Telus’s subreddit (local).

And I’m waiting to hear back, I’ll see what they say. Hopefully they respond before the deal, which has no expiry date as far as I can see, ends. For the present, I’m struggling with the Shaw cable modem connection and I’m not sure why. Perhaps some sort of degradation due to some other heavy users in the apartment or something. It’s intermittent and lasted through the week, but when I run speed tests I see that I’m actually getting pretty clsoe to the 300 down/35 up or whatever that I pay for, and while I’m getting a bit of packet loss now and then it’s generally not awful either.

But streaming to Twitch is awful. My streaming uses about 12,000 kbps or so upload bandwidth with OBS‘s Enhanced Broadcasting on (which generates different resolutions of the stream to send to Twitch because I think Twitch only does that automatically for partners), and somewhere between 2,000 to 4,000 kbps without the option on. For the past year or so I’ve been perfectly fine at this setting, and even during my internet troubles this week, it still occasionally works fine, sometimes for hours at a time, at this (what I consider to be) perfectly normal setting.

But when the packet loss hits, I start dropping massive amounts of frames as the kbps craters, and the actual network bandwidth (as reported by OBS) drops to somewhere between 2k to 4k. This happens for some time, causing buffering for the people watching, before suddenly ballooning to 40-50k kbps or so as the buffering ends and the stream tries to catch up. This causes OBS to disconnect altogether sometimes for a second before reconnecting again, breaking the stream for some people even though my local recording does not get interrupted. Then it stabilizes at 12-13k kbps until the next incident.

It’s very frustrating and there seems to be little I can do about it, it *seems* to be some sort of local congestion since the speedtests all run fine, and the way that the network throttles and then bursts seems to indicate interference or congestion to my unskilled sensitivities as well. As opposed to say a local wire or router issue (although I have unplugged and replugged the copper wire and even tried replacing the network cord), or Shaw throttling my upload activity, or something like that. I also have the same issues doing test streams to YouTube, so it’s not a Twitch server issue either. I might be able to get away with this by turning off Enhanced Broadcasting, but I’m not sure if or how that would interfere with people being able to watch my stream in lower resolutions.

We’ll see what comes of this, either way a nice Internet upgrade for the same price would be nice!

On Thursday this week, I went down to the University to have lunch, and to fulfill one of my “two days on campus per week” nonsense. I saw someone with a claw machine set up on a table:

I didn’t actually go near enough to find out what it’s about, though maybe I should have, since I now see those little food replica display ornaments and a nice notebook on the table. Maybe next time.

I went to have lunch at Hoho’s as I was craving their Singapore Noodle for some reason, and I took a chance to refresh my pictures of their menu:

I also took pictures of some of their side menus and added that to my Memory Snippet of the place:

That last one is on a little shelf on the side that also used to have a big pot of liquid chilli that you could scoop from and add to your bowl. It was very decadent and I liked it, although as the years went by it mostly seemed to become a pot of oil with scraps of chilli flakes and seeds sunken at the bottom. Then it got replaced with the standard red Sriracha chilli bottles. Now the chilli bar is gone entirely.

I had my lunch, then walked past some now-familiar areas to me. Firstly, I passed by the Rutherford Library and took a picture of the scribble board there:

Not for the first time, I will note down that I should really compile my collection of these somewhere. I wonder if the library staff take records of this too at the end of every week or if they consider it ephemeral.

Next, I walked through the University Commons building again, taking a picture of what the main lobby area looks like when no fairy tale board game exhibitions were talking place there:

And I took pictures of the coffee and snack store in the building, Daily Grind, to preserve its offerings and prices for future historians:

Later on in the day, I also took a picture of the Starbucks stall’s holiday menu in the ECHA, or Edmonton Clinic Health Academy, building. It even comes with a convenient timestamp and weather forecast in the background. It fits better here as another menu picture though, so I’ll drop it here:

But rewinding a bit, I then went towards the Butterdome Craft Sale, Winter 2025 edition. I’d briefly written about it and taken a screenshot of the event page a few weeks ago here. I really liked the one that I visited in May, though wait, now I’m wondering why they run it in early May and early December… that’s 7 months/5 months apart if they hold it every May and December, instead of 6 months apart. Wait. Why?

Anyway, I’m not the organizer, just an interested patron, so I brought in my prepaid QR code and walked around for one and a half hours, coming out with a couple of art prints and a handful of ephemera to scan.

Here is an aerial view of the market from the main floor (the market was in the basement) before I went down to it:

A few pictures of the trees and decorations in the front area:

And a cafe rest area complete with price listing:

A few general alleyway shots of the market follow:

And following right behind are a scattering of photos of random stalls that I liked:

Expensive stuff for sure, but very cool stuff. There were stalls selling crafted food and drink, clothing and accessories, jigsaw puzzles and games, jewellery, artwork, postcards, glassware, leather goods, books, plushies, ornaments of all kinds, and more. No AI artwork or 3D-printed plastic stuff as far as I saw, though who knows for sure. Many of the stalls I recognized from summer, but not all.

I also wore the shirt that I had bought in the last sale to this one, hoping to find the stall that I had bought it from to show them that I was wearing it and to tell them how much I liked the shirt. I did indeed find them, and the proprietress was wearing the exact same shirt as well. We enjoyed a laugh and exchanged a few nice words and then I was on my way again.

In addition, I was surprised to find this staring back at me from a stall:

Hey, I know that thing! That’s the little card that I have and have featured before, the one that reads “If your dreams don’t scare you, they aren’t big enough.” Same background and everything too. The name of the store was called IMPAPER, which then led me to find their online store that sold the same item (local). Cool! I don’t know where or when exactly I bought it at still, but it might actually have been a much earlier incarnation of the biannual Butterdome craft sale. The company “About Us” page (local) indicates that they were founded in 2014, so that’s an upper bound as to how early I could have bought it. Either way, it’s nice to see earlier loose threads in my life loop right back in to modern-day reality.

I really enjoyed my walk here, and was on the lookout for a few things, like premium tea boxes or cans, a sticker journal, and fancy socks, but found nothing that satisfied any of those urges. I did some window shopping and price jotting as I went, but in the end I only ended up buying stuff from one store. Oddly, in exactly the same way as the summer sale, I didn’t take pictures of the stall I ended up buying stuff from, but they were called Fearless hART and have an online store here (local) too.

Their store at the fair itself sold art prints, magnets, and other goods from their “She Art” line, with inspirational quotes imprinted on neat painted art, and I ended up purchasing four of them for $25 to line my computer table with, since I have no idea where my IMPAPER art print card is at the moment. These are the ones I got, after scanning:

She conquered her demons and wore her scars like wings.

She had a very important story to tell.

She marched to the beat of her own drum.

She faced adversity with grit and grace.

Good stuff. I love inspirational quotes and I really liked the art too. They give me power! Kami no Chikara! (That’s a Japanese pun.)

Anyway, internet issues and the Butterdome fair dominated the week, and outside of that not too much else happened. I got minor praise at work for finishing an assignment much faster than my boss expected me to, so that was nice. And I unboxed my Radxa Rock 5B+ and put the pieces together, but have not installed an image on it yet.

I also have a couple of sky pictures to add, starting from this one from Sun Nov 30, at 4:24 pm. I like all the horizontal clouds from my vantage point.

This other one is from Fri Nov 05 at 3:56 am.

And here’s a snowstorm on Sat Nov 06, at 8:22 pm.

That stupid truck in the Southgate mall parking lot (along with other snow plows a little earlier in the night, but still long past midnight) was busy keeping up residents even with the balcony doors shut. Although I might have been up until that point for other Twitch-related reasons anyway. Thanks Nomakk.

Games

I tried to play Disco Elysium on stream this week, but eh, the internet issues really made it a bit of a bummer. The game itself is pretty good, although not a game I would call great right now — mostly I don’t like the Eastern European style of drab, smelly, dirty, broken city aesthetic, which tracks with what I think of that setting in other post-apocalyptic games too. The writing is great though and a lot of fun, although it gets a little too risque and NSFW at times. It gives me tons of Planescape: Torment vibes, which is a game I played a fair amount of when I was much younger but never finished.

Off stream, I finished the main story and all the achievements in the base game of DREDGE, including the one to fish up every single variation of fish in the (main) game. There are still two DLCs I don’t have that account for the other 20 achievements, and I’m not sure I care for it — the game was mildly interesting but very short and there were several annoying mechanics that tugged down my enjoyment of the game. Still good enough to finish and appreciate that I now know how it plays and how it ends, though.

After DREDGE, I was tugged in a few different ways but decided to play a bit of Dome Keeper. I had no idea it was a run-based roguelite sort of resource/gem mining game, as opposed to a single long campaign. The character actually running around on the screen where you select all the options for your run is quite stylish too.

I have several other games that I am considering but that game at least took me to the end of the week.

Plushie of the Week #212

On the plushie stage this week is this large mallard duck, a Ty plushie from the Beanie Buddies collection that was in the same box of smoky plushies that Dad received many years back that I have featured several plushies for over the past couple of months. Like the others, this one is no longer a smoked duck, a couple of washes and then two decades of being left alone have more than cured them of any ills that they might have suffered from the smoke.

His canon name is apparently Jake, there’s even a Jake the Duck (local) page on Beaniepedia, which is a site that allows you to catalog your Ty plushie collection, and which I didn’t know existed but am glad that it does. There’s apparently a smaller Beanie Baby version of Jake too, but ours is the larger Beanie Buddies one. We never played with him growing up though, so we have no actual name or backstory for him. I remember seeing him a few times and marvelling that he was a big duck, but that’s it.  He also has no attached detachable Ty tag, just the stitched one.

Front:

Side:

Other side:

Underside:

Tag 1 front:

Tag 1 back/Tag 2 front:

Tag 2 back:

Dreams
Dec 01 2025
  • I was applying to enter a portal at the front of a classroom in school, which led to a different world where we could cast magic and do other adventuring stuff. I don’t remember if I could cast magic in the current world as well, but this application was mostly a formality as I was already level 9, the maximum level, and I was already familiar with the world on the other side as well, it was implied that I had been there before.
  • I applied with two other students who were lower level than me, and the three of us knelt down separately, a couple of feet apart, facing the teacher at the front of the classroom. Knowing that I was max level, the teacher used me for a demonstratation for the principal who happened to be walking by the classroom, leaning in to me as though to kiss me and then whispering something in my ear. Eventually she approved all our applications though.
  • Before going in, I went to another classroom, specifically a lab which a bunch of girls were using as their home bases, each one claiming a table and the surrounding area to put down their items and set up camp. Huihan had control of the teacher’s front desk, and I went there to drop off something. No one else was in the lab when I entered the room from a back door, and along my way towards the front, I peeked at some open laptops and saw that several people had anime music videos playing. I left a suggestion that they try AMQ to see if they could cooperatively solve their way through a game.
  • I eventually went through the portal and took a bus that looped around an entire city on the other side, despite the fact that being level 9 meant that I could teleport to wherever I wanted to. I was specifically looking at people, examining NPCs that we passed by or that boarded the bus, trying to look for someone with a particular trait. I didn’t find what I was looking for in the end though, so I eventually disembarked the bus and teleported somewhere else instead to do something akin to a dungeon in a game.
  • Later, there was also something about watching others needing to level up and seeing someone cast a spell that acted similarly to Turn Undead, causing a red pulsating circle to spread forth from her, pass through friendly targets, and affect certain enemy targets. It apparently gave a decent chunk of xp, but only if it hit at least one eligible enemy.
Dec 02 2025
  • Snippet: I remember a character class in a dream game that casted debuffs to everyone on the map by using a spoon to scoop out powder from a jar, and then blew on it to send the powder scattering all over the map. That same class also attacked by jumping over tiles, including people and walls in the way, to a tile adjacent to its target.
  • Snippet: I was taking an elevator down from a building lobby and the leftmost of three elevators arrived first. I went in with two others and commented on how the elevator was new, and one of the others pointed out that half of the elevator wall that I was standing next to was actually a side panel that could be slid open so that we could see the elevator shaft’s wall on the way down if we wanted to.
Dec 03 2025
  • I was outside a classroom studying for a Chinese exam that I was worried about, but had not had time to study for, along with everyone else from my class and some juniors from the class year after ours as well. I was seated outside instead of inside because some of my friends were being rowdy inside the class and I wanted the relative quietness of the outside to cram as much as possible since there were only 20 minutes to the start of the exam.
  • I joined an empty seat at a table with a group of five others, and one of the juniors in that group mentioned something like “Welcome to the quiet study group” in reference to how noisy it was inside as well.
  • The class had involved playing a Chinese game, and I told her that in my experience, these exams tended to be less about the mechanics and more about the Chinese definitions and grammar used in the game and to concentrate on studying that instead. She thanked me for that information. That also tended to be my weakest part of the class so that was all I studied.
  • When the exam eventually started though, we were teleported to a virtual museum-like space with exhibits that we could walk between and the exam questions pasted on sheets of black paper on the wall. A lot of them did end up being mechanic questions, which were simpler, but I felt slightly bad about being wrong and accidentally misleading the juniors.
  • I started filling in my answers on a Scantron sheet but at some point forgot about it and started writing my answers on the question sheets on the wall instead. By the time I realized that I had been doing this wrong, I was about 20 or 30 questions in, with only the first 9 actually filled in on my Scantron. Zixiang was walking along with me, and was in the same boat, with all his answers on the wall papers instead of on a personal answer sheet.
  • We talked to the nearby teacher who shook her head and told us to finish the quiz first, then go back and walk through the first bit again and copy down our answers onto our sheet. I was afraid that there might not be enough time to do that but did agree that that was the best and most time-efficient solution from here.
  • Ronnie was also standing around with the teacher, and he said that Melbourne had also done the same thing but had done it from the very start, yet since he was ahead of us he had already gone back and copied down all his answers, so we should be fine as long as we kept up a decent pace.
  • Snippet: I heard from Miyu and some friends studying in Kyoto that the RSJP was cancelled, due to something that the latest cohort of exchange students did that soured the receiving University from running the annual exchange program any longer. The University even removed the self-application form that used to be on their website. I was sad that the current group of students just entering our school would never get the chance to go on the cultural exchange like I did. However, on a more personal note, Miyu showed me a teleporter hidden in some bushes (on the Kyoto end at least) that would take me from the city where I was living in all the way to Kyoto and back at will. I still couldn’t meet up and see her all the time though, and was slightly sad at this. But I did end up eventually mentioning the teleporter to some of my other disinterested friends too.
Dec 04 2025
  • Snippet: I was watching Nomakk talk to someone on his stream as they walked down a street inside a game together. The other person was androgynous and they were talking about how they managed to complete a dungeon in the game. Later on, while reviewing the dungeon itself, Nomakk referenced things that the guy said and included a symbol of the orcs in the dungeon being impaled on a stick like they were kebabs. I protested at that, saying that that could be interpreted as a slur against queer people like the person he had interviewed, while Nomakk countered and said that he was simply using the sticker symbol that the interviewee had shown him that they used to mark their own kills. I considered rage-leaving the stream but decided that it wasn’t in me to leave an ultimatum.
  • Snippet: I brought three friends to a restaurant near a train station that I had wanted to visit in past dreams. It was a small shop in a musty part of town near the University, and one that I could never visit alone, so I was happy to finally visit it. However, while I had expected some special Christmas dishes there, all they had were plates of unappetizing glass noodles. They even gave our group of 4 a weird table, with curved booth seating providing for seats for 3 people while the fourth person had to sit on a stool. I took the stool to give my friends a better experience, and became defensive when they also started to criticize the restaurant, telling them that I was well aware and arguing that I had never been here myself either. One of the others said that they would give me another chance to find a nice restaurant in town for them to visit.
Dec 05 2025
  • Snippet: I was attempting to teach someone how to use a combat spell in a turn-based game. The later he held on to the spell before casting it, which he could only do once per level, the stronger the spell was, however he never actually had the patience to wait more than a couple turns before casting it, and then would complain afterwards that the spell was not very strong, much to my chagrin. I believe that the counter indicating the amount of turns waited might have been cumulative across battles and might have been measured using the names of the days of the week somehow.
Dec 06 2025
  • Snippet: There was a card game board with an engraved black bronze face set into the background. The board had cards that represented tasks or minions and I could play cards that did things like debuff those tasks/minions or worked towards completing or defeating them. But the face would also be affected by whatever cards I played even if I did not target it directly. Each round of this game involved finishing all the tasks and still being able to defeat the face afterwards too, and my strategy was to play cards that slowed the individual cards a lot so that all of those slows would also affect the face, and give me plenty of additional time to deal with the face afterwards.
Dec 07 2025
  • Snippet: I was raising some virtual pets in my spare time, and I received messasges about it in two separate Discord servers from two separate people. Both of them had somehow seen my roster, and one of them wanted to buy one of my pets for some reason as it turned out that it would evolve into something good, while someone else was praising another pet that I had obtained and raised.
  • Snippet: Mom admonished Kel about something that she wanted to do that involved going away somewhere, but Jon and I helped her do it anyway. A little after that, Mom was lying in a two-seater sofa in a small room while Dad was trying to set up a cushion and a laptop in the hallway just outside the small room. I got him a cardboard box to place the laptop on, and suggested that I bring him a more comfortable cushion to sit or kneel on. We liked that spot for him overall though because it was right below a warm heating vent in the ceiling, and thus was very comfortable for him since the weather was cold.
  • Snippet: I was trying to get by a door that was trapped by lasers, with red streaks attaching the door to some traps in front of it and some kitchen chairs behind it. I eventually realized that the “lasers” were actually just red pieces of cord though, and so I simply unhooked the cords and opened the door.
  • Snippet: I also remember seeing a house for sale for 320k on the realtor map and wondering why I didn’t get an email notification for it.

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