Dreams

Jun 07 2021

• I was part of a group of people that were being hunted down by another group of people in a post-apocalyptic style setting. The leader of the other group seemed to know our rough position, even if we hid.
• One morning while we were about to embark southward through a marsh, I looked north and noticed something on the horizon, so I squinted and magnified my vision and could see a bunch of black dots that could only be the other group, approaching us from the distance in the north.
• I told my group leader this, and he altered our travel path to instead go south and eastwards, briefly through the swamp and then to some houses where we could hide in.
• We travelled through the marsh with me and the leader carrying a bunch of our group’s possessions, whereas two other women carried the children and babies along, trudging with bare feed through the mud. At some point someone also caught a fish of some kind and we left its guts floating in the mud.
• Once out of the mud, we trudged over to the housing area and hid in an apartment that looked similar to my current RL apartment. We were basically behind a sofa that took the place of the internal wall in my apartment.
• The other group found our apartment easy enough, but we were all hiding and they combed the area for a bit without finding us (mostly because a couple people that could have seen us didn’t look down).
• Eventually, two different people did see us, but because I knew so many people on both teams, I put a finger to my lips to ask them to keep quiet and they nodded OK. One of the people was someone that I had pegged as a friend but I didn’t recognize, and the other was a Black scientist who used to work for us as a freelancer, but then had been either captured or it had become inconvenient to continue working for us due to where he lived, so he now followed the other group around. No hard feelings though.
• The leader of the group didn’t spot us, but he stood in the doorway to the apartment and refused to move.
• One of his minions suggested that maybe we had all gotten eaten on our escape attempt since they had also saw the animal or fish guts floating in the mud pool earlier.
• The kids and other women were doing great hiding but it was getting more dangerous by the moment, so I decided to do something. I left my leader where he was and put on a blue wig, and with the help of another friend that I had in the opposing group, I slipped out to join a song and dance troupe that was there to entertain the opposing leader. After a performance, I revealed that I was one of the members of the other team and that the rest had indeed all drowned or moved on, but that I was willing to join his troupe as a dancer. I planned to escape by myself in the future as I was really stealthy.
• This feud between the two groups originally started when we were ice hockey teams, and the opposing leader was on our team. He was the best player to ever play the game, with more points in his career than the next 3 players combined. However, due to being past his prime and not fitting in our team’s strat, he was benched on our team, whereas his younger brother, who he hated but was a legitimate player on his own merits, was recruited to the team and joined the lineup.
• He found out about this as he was operating a kiosk booth in a mall, and I took his brother by the area as part of an introduction tour. They saw each other, he made a fuss about not wanting to be near his brother, and left the team to form his own. He beat us in the league and then proceeded to hunt us down to try to convert or eradicate us. That’s why I knew a lot of people on both sides, as everyone else didn’t really care about the feud but we were all in the same business, more or less.
• There were three snippets in this dream but I am not sure how or where they fit into the story. The first was getting vaccinations, specifically 2kg worth of them. The second was a slow coinflip motion that accompanied and moved with the opposing group’s leader as he traversed through the swamp. And the third was a segment where I had to translate song titles from English into Japanese.
• Snippet: In a later dream, I was part of a 1 guy 3 girl group who was taking care of a bunch of children. The plot is uncertain, but it at least involved two minigames that others played, a bus, acquiring 15000 free gems in some gacha game, at least one game of some sort that we played as well, being outdoors in an urban housing area, and a teleport machine.
• Editor: The dance scene was definitely inspired from Aikatsu!, and the 15000 free gems from either the Touhou LostWord gacha game, or Genshin Impact, as it felt like a mixture between those two games in the dream. The opposing hockey player was definitely Wayne Gretzky-esque but an evil version of him at best, with a brother who could actually play at the same professional level (the real life Brent Gretzky did as well but barely).

Jun 08 2021

Dream 1:

• I helped a friend set up a second monitor/computer on his messy L-shaped desk in preparation for a 5-6 player hotseat game that we were going to play. One player spot was for an AI that ran as a server or a GM, though. Mom wasn’t going to come because she didn’t want to take someone’s spot but I told her that a friend had dropped out so we actually had a free spot for her.
• I don’t remember the game but it had to do with needing to power something up to use skills. There were two different skill sets that could be used, and they somehow involved putting crystals of different sizes into something. Acquisition of those crystals seemed to have been somehow linked to two all-boy bands/groups and different combinations of their members to try to finalize their group memberships. There was some aspect of competition between the two groups.

Dream 2:

• I was taking the train system by myself in an overseas city that was a mix between Montreal and London. It was a really large train system with many different lines, a confusing map, and it stretched over multiple rural areas and urban areas, crossed rivers and islands, and went underground and aboveground.
• I made a transfer at an underground station at one point as I saw a somewhat familiar station name down another line that my current line intersected, so I decided on a whim to head that way. The station name that I saw was Smogmaw, it was on the outskirts of a central city hub, and I felt like I had been there before once in my dreams, a long, long time ago, so I wanted to go back there and take pictures to see if it had changed in the years since I last visited this dream train network.
• I saw many random people and had many random events on the train. For example, I overheard several business conversations between people, as well as one boy grumbling at the train door in Japanese and asking it to hurriedly open as it slowly slid to a stop at a station, as he mumbled about Kare something. I saw the train pass by a despondent business woman sitting with her back against a tree, as well as two sets of lovers lounging in the sun on a front garden area of a factory of some kind, enjoying each other’s company. I had someone unseen drum his fingers against my thigh in the crowded train, and I moved away from him in disgust. I saw someone else at a station standing by an escalator checking for transit tickets, and I realized that I hadn’t paid and had no real idea of how to pay, even though I had unused transit tickets with me. Later on the crowd on the train thinned and I found a train seat, which was warm.
• At one point, I saw a video ad of a station that was linked to an old Singapore station, and the video played a clip from a construction of the station. I wasn’t interested in the guy speaking in the foreground but I noticed that the background was vintage Singapore memories of places under construction and the city skyline, from 20+ years ago, that were now lost to time, and I regretted that.
• All in all, I was in full on exploration mode, and was filled with a sense of intense wonder, freedom, and loneliness at being alone in this foreign land, as the train rattled on.
• Editor: Smogmaw is a city in Book 3 of the Fabled Lands gamebook series.

Jun 09 2021

• I dreamt that I was at a large shopping complex that was two adjacent tall shopping malls at least five storeys tall each, joined at the bottom floor or two by a walkway with shops.
• I had visited both sides of this shopping complex several times before in previous dreams, and thus recognized it. In particular, there was a two-floor library on top of the left mall that I had been to before, and I could see escalators and remember nearby shops that sold clothing, books, bedding linen, and more, as well as things like an open, sunlit, indoor area on the third floor that was a computer commons area for students.
• Anyway, I was curious today about a supermarket on the ground floor in the left mall. I walked over and stood by the entrance of the supermarket but it had not hit capacity yet so the security guard in the supermarket waved me in. I immediately walked around to browse a bit, then went over to the cashier to stand with my empty basket. I realized it was still empty though, so I let the person behind me take my place, and walked off again to look for something to buy.
• Putting down the basket, I picked up a magazine of some kind, tucked it under my arm, and then wandered around a bit more, looking specifically at groceries. Walking slowly, I somehow strolled right out of the supermarket and toward the section of the complex that joined the two malls together, before realizing that the shelves had long since turned into shops and although I had not passed a gate, I was outside the supermarket but still had the unpaid magazine under my arm.
• Turning around, I strolled back with the magazine in full view to acknowledge that I had forgotten to pay for it, and the guard at the mall hurried over to me and thanked me for coming back — he said he had been trying to looking for me for an hour but there were so many people in the complex that it was difficult to pinpoint any one person.
• He asked me to follow him to a back security room that was adjacent to the supermarket. He led me through a pair of unmarked doors down a rough stone path that turned right, then left, and then into a small, cramped room. I marveled a bit at the area because I had never been to this area before and thus it was a new experience that I appreciated.
• He sat down on the only chair in the cramped room and then felt really awkward when I asked him if I should stand or sit or whatnot. He said I could kneel down in a Japanese sitting-style in front of him, and he gave me a tissue roll, from which I tore off five pieces of thick tissues that more resembled cloths, to put under the knees so that I wouldn’t scrape it against the floor.
• This still looked really awkward though, and to make it worse, the door to the small office would swing open due to motion sensors everytime someone passed by the office, and apparently regular people, especially students, did use a back door to the mall that was near the office, and an elevator that was directly across from the security office, so it swung open regularly as students or other people wandered by.
• The guard was really self-conscious too, so everytime the door shut, he would open his mouth to try to speak, but then quickly stop as the door swung open again. I was a little self-conscious, but not really, because he had indicated at some point that I wasn’t in trouble but just had to help file some report. I was more conscious about my position than anything.
• At some point, I dimly recognized someone I knew, Bernadette, whom was passing by and peeked in. I have no idea if she remembered who I was as I barely remembered who she was.
• At various other points, we both were forced to leave the room for some reason to separate locations, and then had to return after some time. This happened two or three times in total. He asked after one of the times if I by chance had managed to find time to write the report and I said no, as it was still in the cramped side room and I couldn’t actually get into it when it was empty without him being there.
• At another point, a pretty girl who was dressed in tight-fitting and revealing clothing stopped by, started in surprise, and then actually spoke up to ask if I was a sex worker giving him a blowjob or something, since I was a female kneeling down in front of the male guard. This made him really uncomfortable and made me laugh and I leaned in suggestively to lay one hand on the knee of his pants.
• Impressed and getting the wrong idea, she hrmphed and explained that she was a sex worker too and would be happy to teach us tips sometime or at least meet up with us to chat again in the future. She also started talking about more private locations in the mall that we could “do our deed” in, and I realized that I also knew a couple places in the mall that we could go for peace and quiet (and that I could actually sit down properly in) to file this report.
• The scene swung to a big 3D map of both shopping malls at this time, complete with security corridors that looped around the outside of much of the mall. I even noticed that there were maintenance railways nearby that connected the left and the right track, which could be traversed using minecarts, and I told him that we should consider taking the rails to the right building.
• The right building in particular had a good network of railway laid down, and I remembered that Satinel had told me and everyone else in Discordia about its existence as well as how to use them in the past. There was a set of maintenance tracks surrounding the outside of each mall level in a circle, and I could see from the 3D map that you could grasp the railway and pull or push yourself to gain momentum for your cart along the rails. As well, sections of the rail had red booster tracks that would speed your cart up if your cart ran over those tracks. Furthermore, there was a section of the track that was connected vertically somehow, and you could “hop” up or down that section with the cart to reach different floors.
• I indicated that we should try to get to the top floor of the right mall, because there were small but spacious rentable and private study rooms there with a large table and seats. He seemed to warm to the idea and so we started to head over there before the dream ended.
• Editor: I had definitely visited this mall multiple times in past dreams before, as I remembered some activities around the computer commons area on the right, the library on the top floor on the left, as well as noting that the bedding linen store, that was one of the shops in the walkway that connected the two malls, was often quiet and bereft of visitors. I also remembered walking around looking for shops that sold collectible trading cards, although I don’t remember if I actually found a shop in this mall.
• Editor: The rail system here was definitely inspired by Terraria or Minecraft, with slight modifications.
• Editor: Bernadette was a really familiar name and face IRL, but I could not place from where. After some curious 4:30 am research I determined that the name of the face I remembered was actually Bernadeen, someone from high school that I had shared a couple classes with. First time in the dream diaries I’ve ever thought of her, though my Canadian school friends barely ever show up in my dreams anyway. I also was left with a strange memory of a name though, a Bernadette Lee, that fit no one I ever knew (high school and University and Facebook records turned up completely empty, and it definitely was not from before high school) even though it felt like there was someone from my late school/early working career with that name.

Jun 10 2021

• A magical girl protagonist and two guys were travelling around the land as an adventuring party of some sort. She really liked and was possibly even romantically involved with one of them.
• Besides the usual health bars etc as part of someone’s profile, there was also a friendship bar. There was also a guild roster, but instead of a last login time, there was a last friendship time instead, and even though it was December, several people had their last friendship time in December and several others only had theirs set to September.
• At one point, she was injured and lying face up in a daze on a bed in the local hospital. The doctor overseeing her commented that even though her health bar was low, her friendship bar was full and pure white. She wasn’t aware about this but was happy, as that meant that her satisfaction level was really high.
• At another point, the third wheel in the group took an arrow to the chest and had to be left behind in a city to recover as the girl and her other companion embarked on their journey by themselves.
• Snippet: In an earlier dream, there was some kind of alternate world connected to our main one by a portal. Land was freeing up on the map as I did something, and as that happened, owners of nearby “kingdoms” of land would claim that land and move their “capital city”, as though they were steering a ship, nearer to that land in order to claim the newly created space, much to my chagrin.

Jun 11 2021

• Travelling to and from to school was involved somehow, but the gist of the dream was that I was building a fort, not only for myself but also for my classmates, at least 15 people or so in all eventually. The room had four sofas that at first formed a primary wall that prevented undesirables from entering, and I scavenged and brought back all kinds of things for the inside of the room. Later on, as more people arrived, the couches got moved around a bit so they were more of a symbolic border than a physical one, as larger things got left inside the room but outside the barrier too. A crawlhole half the height of a normal human was necessary to enter and exit the room.
• As well, in the room next door, there were four vending machines that I had apparently built from hand and had a friend’s help in installing. One of the vending machines had some half-eaten meatballs that I had left there from what seemed like a different dream in the past, or at least a sense of “some time ago”. However, the friend had stored it in a microwave unit that was the top part of the makeshift vending machine, and the microwave unit still worked and had heated up my food fine, so the friend said it was safe to eat. I ate it.
• Besides people, there were also animals that were wandering in and out of the room. There was at least one cat and one chicken, and I had to rush out through the crawlhole to carry them back in (and fetch the chicken eggs) now and then when the animals wandered out of the room.
• There was also the concept of a couple animals wandering around in another nearby room that I wanted to keep out, and part of building the barrier was to defend against them, though I also had the option of welcoming them in.
• Then there were schoolbus scenes, where the schoolbus ceiling was really low and I had to kind of crawl over people lounging about to get to the seats. Once you got to a seat you could sit upright just fine though. I remember feeling the body heat and sweat of a girl I brushed against while trying to make my way around and over her lounging form. Random people, some friends and some former classmates and some not, were discussing classes on the bus, and although I don’t remember the class names, they were definitely University ones since they had three digit numbers and semesters attached to their name.
• I mentioned that I hadn’t even finalized all my class grades for the previous winter semester yet due to an appeal and someone at the back of the bus asked whether I meant a specific class that he was in (I didn’t), as he was undergoing the same thing.
• There was also a previous snippet of the same dream that was somehow related, involving an idol and her manager, another girl that held conversations with him, a floating device that gave a four digit rating score, a house that they were trying to replace or move out of, and that house had both an English and a Japanese name. The Japanese name started with Bokura or Minna and the English name (which was a direct translation) thus started with Our or Everyone’s.
• Editor: The grade appeal is of course a reference to an ongoing saga that you can read more about in the School section of my diary entries.
• Editor: The name of the house in the last snippet was based off of an anime idol movie which I had heard about the day before and had considered watching.

Jun 12 2021

• Something about matching up people with giant carrots that represented their dreams, but also represented their eventual death (I think) in some way or another. There was nothing morbid about it though.
• There was a party of some sort going on in a room at the same time as well. Now and then, someone would have to come out of the party to confront some people attempting to come up the stairs to the party — this was tied into the matching people up with carrots, although the carrots themselves weren’t what they confronted.
• There were a whole ton of little snippets that I couldn’t remember how they fit in. For example, at some point, there was the feeling of going out with several people to those stairs, and splitting something of mine that had already been completed, into two pieces, in order to deal with whatever was being brought up the stairs. And a feeling of “Thankfully I’m here so I can take care of this”. There was a snippet at another point about someone leaving and flying away with an “Aaaaaah”, as well, and a feeling that the things coming up the stairs were sometimes puzzles and at one point I could solve half of a puzzle by myself, which represented the left side of a big rectangular block, but needed everyone’s help to do the other half.

Jun 13 2021

• My dream involved a 12 year old tomboyish girl with long hair that could be tucked up into her hat, who was an internet sensation with her guitar, and had 6 songs that she wrote and could play. She would stream online and in-person. The dream didn’t actually involve her except as an important background character though, I believe.
• I had a conflict with some sort of group that came along to my HDB flat apartment to confront me over something or other. It seemed to involve how well I could play those songs and then divide the songs into some different categories.
• There was an element or feeling about needing to escape from this group of people chasing me by playing a sort of hide and seek game that involved those songs, and also Internet audience voting on how well they were played.